I can't believe how long it has been since I last blogged! My weeks and days have been insanely busy and I have collapsed in exhaustions at the end of most days.
I went to my yearly week-end with teens last week and it was fun as ususal. Picture 135 High School Sophomores (15-16 years old) pumped up on sugar, yelling cheers as loud as they can and discussing the future of the world the rest of the time. We had a blast. Some of the kids were amazingly smart, which gives me hope and balances some of the challenges I face with the kids I work with for my job.
Speaking of which, It has been closer to a pain than anything else. WARNING: the following paragraph contains intense raving and bitching about work, upbeat section of blog comes after, feel free to skip to that part. END OF WARNING. I had some training which was good, and since then I have been trying to catch up. We have mountains of documentation that we struggle to keep up with, and more work than can be done. I get frustrated. More and more responsibilities are put on me and I want to move on. Last week, after a week-end of not much sleep with the crowd of teens, I was required to attend training every mornings from 8 to 12, and then basically do all of the rest of my work, which takes at least 6 to 7 hours just to stay afloat. I was a real bitch all week to everyone, and very short with my boss. We finally talked on Friday and I will not do the second week of the training. Two of the reasons that pissed me the most were that this was a training for the trainer of a basic communication training for foster parents. I don't want to have to take another assignment, because I don't have time for it. The nature of the training was very basic and nothing I did not know, so basically useless to me. I'll do the time crunch thing if I will get something out of the training, but not if I won't. In addition, I have a hard time being at work at 8 am because I have to do my meds which take a half hour, and I really need to go to the gym to keep my lung function at its best, that takes about 1 and 1/2 hour before breakfast and shower and drive to work, and no, I will not get up at five in the morning to get to work at 8. Anyway, I did bitch to the boss and now I'm out of the training for the second week. Another thing that pissed me off was that there is a huge conference of all the folks who do my program in california in June and I really wanted to go, but was told we could not send anyone. Then I find out that my boss, the agency CEO and another person all are going to present on our program. That really upset me, not that I am not going, but that I was not in the loop of setting it up. My boss kept saying he would rather not go, and I don't care about how he feels about going or not, I would have like to be included in decisions being made about my program, since I am the supervisor of the program! GRRR!
NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS:
Another thing that has taken time away from blogland is that I have applied to the local college as an instructer and was accepted. I will teach a class in the fall. That may help me move on away from a job where I feel like I am treading water and never get closer to the shore. I am really excited about it and realize that it will be a lot of work at first, but I am ready for a change and something where I feel some fun. I may be able to have a private practice too in the future, so that could bring some positive changes.
I also have been to concerts that were very uplifting. I went to the closing season concert of the choir I toured with last year and it brought back such strong memories. It was wonderful. I loved hearing all of their voices. I also went to see a funk group that is great and danced some. So it is not all bad, actually there is quite a bit of good. I just don't do well when I am overtired and don't get an opportunity to exercise.
On the horizon, the music festival I attend each year is coming up and I will be delighted to have fun with friends and fill my heart with music.