Still hanging

Went to a great party for a friend's birthday tonight. Still drifting in and out of reality, feeling like I want to be somewhere else most of the time. I found out that my brother as been moonligthing on tv in canada. That sounds like fun, but I wonder what kind of roles he is getting. He used to act when we were teens and even had his own theater as a young adult and was fairly successful. I am glad that at sixty, he is discovering new arenas of his life. Sorta gives me hope that I can still rearrange my life no matter what age I get to be!

I had my yearly evaluation this Friday and asked my boss for an extra day off. Blamed it on my health, which is true the stress increases my symptoms of asthma. I am hoping to go to 4 days in September. A friend is also recommending I start teaching at local colleges. She has some connections and said she would advocate for me. That sounds exiting to me and different. Even if I have less caseloads, child welfare is still quite stressful and intensive and I am reaching my point of no return. I hope that good things are in store for me.

I am exited as I am going to a promising show tomorrow night Issa Bagayogo, right here in my town. My good friend the spin doctor is producing the show. He has brought some great acts to our area. I think it will be great. Another friend who is a percussionist will be the opening act. Should be great. I need some fun things where I forget myself as I am still reeling from my recent travel and only reluctantly do I enjoy what I usually enjoy. AHH fickle heart of mine, always looking for the greener grass in the neighboring pastures.